When I am in motion, my life is in balance.

I've tried and tried my entire life to be a runner.  To find the sanctity that my best friend has found while she runs.   I say that I haven't found it and then I stop running and realize time and time again, that indeed, I had found it.

When I run, and I'm alone with my thoughts, I feel stronger.  I enjoy the challenge to myself and I love the answers I find while running.

Today at lunch I told Mat that I feel stronger when I'm alone and running. It reminds me that I'm strong while I'm alone and I don't need to worry about others.   It makes me question why I'm in a relationship.  What's the point of relationships?   I'm earnestly seeking the answers. 

At the end of the day, you could never really know the person you're with because every interaction changes who you are.  So if I don't know me and I'm constantly changing, how can I know you? 
Also, when information is withheld in relationships because the other person doesn't remember to tell you something or doesn't feel like its important enough to tell you- then you can' t possibly know that person anyway.  Anyway, this blog isn't for this.  As usual, I get side tracked. 

As a new realized runner; my normal run today will be to try and beat my best time from last week of 10:35/mile

My personal best is an 8 min mile and that was about 7 years ago or so.  And I'll never be a marathoner (I have no ambition to do so) but I will always enjoy the small challenges I give myself in my exercise.

I am happy to note that as of yesterday, my abs were still tender from the workout last week.  So- I'm on a good road to making my body better.

I'd also like to let you know that I've consistently weighted in at 69.5 (151.8 pounds) for the last week.  Whoot whoot!!   So I'm down a few kg and six more pounds to get to my ideal weight. 

I'm getting there....even though I haven't been eating very clean!